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All I want is to be who I want to be
To breathe the air that gasp mi free
To live the dreams my mind conceived
To see the world in love and peace

Let us not take love for granted
For many awaits the touch for hopes and inspirations
Dream. Dare . Do
Let the sun burns through the horizon and the stars to sparkle
Face each day with a smle for others
Never let yesterday's disappointment overshadow tomorrow's dreams....

*-=__It is not about loving a perfect person...
...but to love an imperfect person perfectly __=-*

***__________. dreams of the sparkled stars____::***

::_memories unforgottened_::
June 2004
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May 2008

Saturday, February 11, 2006

-= merely thoughts =-

okaez...sorrie to everyone for my MIA from blog for soooo llloonnng...bet if aniwan else comes back here to read animore. Ha. The thing is tat usually when there's things to blog, im usually too busi to blog. And when i finally haf time to blog, that's when there's nothing much for me to blog about. Ha~ Irony.

Life's nothing but an irony.

Many things have happened. Many ups and downs; many tears and laughters; many illusions and realisatons, many confusions and escapsims. I dun exactly noe whats going on in my life now...Juz feel like there's this huge change in myself. I really don't understand myself. I tink im too sophisticate for my little mind to figure out about myself.

Mayb im juz tired. Tired about everything. Everything that im involved in, everything that i know and see and feel, basically juz myself. I tink i've lose sense about everything im doing. It seems like im juz living things day by day. Im so busi now that my schedule is controling my life, rather then letting my life control my schedule.

Realli been down recently. No focus in everything i do, not to even mention motivation and passion. I realli don't know wad i wan now.... In fact i think sometimes its not that I don't noe....juz more like i don't want myself to noe.....escapism....

Been clubbing quite a lot recently. Though i told myself im gonna cut on it, but everytime it seems like i oni feel better after i club, at least a little happier. And clubbing seems to b the oni thing tat can keep mi at the minimum level if excitment and something to look forward to. Good and bad....

Realised something about myself....Always thought tat i wunt get drunk. Well, mayb im wrong. I wunt b dead drunk, as in like totally gone or totally lose my sense and go around puking type, but yesh...i do get high and unsober if i let myself to... and seems like im letting myself get drunk more and more often nowadaes. Somehow i enjoy the feeling of numbness, but don't worry, i'll still noe wad im doing. Thanx to everyone who always take care of mi when im like unsober...

Okaez...life to mi now realli seems meaningless, as much as i noe there are meaning to the things im doing, im juz tired. Tired about everything that i've been trying to hang on to. Somehow Im tired of waiting for things that seems like they will never happen.

Gone. What is life but merely 100 years to a century, 10 years to a decade, 365 days to a year, a year to 12 months, 1 month to 4 weeks, 1week to 7 days, 1 day to 24 hrs, 1 hr to 60 mins, 1min to 60 secs. All about life is to find things to do to fulfil these timings. How long more can i last? Im sick of hiding myself behind my happy face. Mayb Lao-na is right, my plate is too small for what i've taken and things are overflowing.... The metal frame is giving way. I don't noe how long more i can last before my inner-self breaks down. Lets juz hope its not so soon, so that at least i can fulfil wad is deemed as my responsibilities....
::__. eXquisTic . SoPhiStIcaTion____::
Saturday, February 11, 2006